Sunday, February 14, 2010

Non-monotheists, your advice please?

I have been a reluctant Christian for 30 of my 43 years, starting when my hideous "parents" convinced me that I would burn in hell forever. I have spent a long, long time hating Yahweh. I've slipped into a suicidal depression recently (don't worry, getting therapy and meds and have friends). One of the myriad things preying on my mind is this fear of hell. I've been out here obsessively over the last couple of nights trying to purge something.

Just a few minutes ago I was sitting here writing, as usual, and hating Yahweh, as usual, and for a reason I don't understand, stopped myself and just talked to myself out loud: "That thing right there, the thing that you're hating, isn't real." I said stuff like that to myself a few more times. I think that something big might be about to happen for me.

So, non-monotheists, I'm a spiritual guy, so give me some quick blurbs about your spirituality to give me some ideas of where I might land. I'm excited. I might even hug a tree, so pagans feel free to chime in.

Best answer, posted by "Ted":

Sounds like your going insane. Huh. Funny stuff happens to them Christians

My response:

Whoa, dude, I get it. You're saying that one place for me to land is "don't take yourself too seriously." Man, that is deep. And I think you're right. I'll start there. What a crazy trip.

1 comment:

  1. First of all, I'm glad you feel big changes are in your near future, I certainly hope that's true... I obviously didn't get to your question, so I hope you don't mind if I chime in now... I consider myself a pantheist, at least I think that's what it's called. Not sure. Anyway, I believe that the only "god" is nature, not some anthropomorphic entity in the sky. I also don't refer to it as "god". If I call anything "god", it's usually a traditionally religious idea I'm discussing, as I don't consider deities of any kind to actually exist as most religions see them. I also believe in karma, and that nature's laws will even everything out. But I don't know. I'm always trying to learn more ideas so I can put together what I believe, but I don't subscribe to all the ideas any one "religion" or belief system puts out. Mix and match is what I do. No group-think.